Tied by an Accident

Most of us have that desire to settle down have kids and live in a very beautiful home. We oftentimes forget that life will be life and that there will be obstacles along the way and that sometimes, things may not even have a happy ending but we never really realize that until it happens.

The moment our mind opens to the term we call "love," we start fantasizing about how things would be like how our significant other would look like and that we would live in a big and beautiful mansion. You'd have lots of kids and he'd have an awesome job and so would you. In that fantasy, you can even own your own kick-ass company. You'd have maids and butlers greeting you by the door and you'd have this really expensive car and lots of international flights just for a vacation.

Then you grow up and see your parents fight and your crush won't even look at you so your fantasy becomes different. Your mansion becomes a two or three-story home and your husband becomes average with stable finances. Maybe, you'd have four or five children max because apparently, raising children costs so much more than you thought. Your maids and butlers become just one nanny so you can go to work in a small company that you and your husband own. Your dream of having an expensive car becomes a car and your dream vacations become domestic flights. Then you think, that sounds about right...right? No more has to change?

Then you graduate get your first boyfriend. You'd see a future with him...married, have a child...have a job...work and earn...live in an apartment. Start saving together for the future. You won't have a car just yet but maybe in the future. You won't go on trips for the meantime but you're saving up for them someday. Then, you have a pregnancy scare and you haven't even graduated college and you'd think to yourself, what am I doing with my life? I'm planning a future that might or might not even happen with a guy I've dated for a couple of months. So you think to yourself, this has got to stop. I am going to take precautionary measures. It can't go on this way forever.

Time flies and you find yourself single again but you've graduated college...no kids, thank God! Next thing you know, you're on your way to finding a job and when you finally have a it, you'd be too busy to even go on dates. You'd start saving up to move out of your parent's home permanently and when you finally do, you'd find yourself bombarded with bills here and there; wishing you can just crawl back to your mother's womb and just wishing you can stay there where it's safe and you can stay helpless for the rest of your life. You'd look back at that very moment you first had your fantasy about how your life should have gone. All you can do is laugh at yourself after knowing how silly you were as a kid and finding out that you were so naïve with life and maybe you still are because you still have that dream on your mind. The only difference is that this time, you know that's wishful thinking and that maybe it will never be exactly as you have dreamt it.

But when you finally get one part of that dream coming to true, what's next for you? Is there some way of knowing exactly how things will progress? Is it going to end in a happy ending at least? Or is that another wishful thinking from an adult who perfectly knows it is naivety working at its best?