CHAPTER 07

CHAPTER SEVEN

NATHANS POV

Everything's changed, especially between Mitchell and I. I usually held on to the thought before that maybe one day I'll grow to love her since everyone saw us as the perfect match but I don't think I can do that anymore. Not when I've fallen so irrevocably in love with someone else. I could never give Mitchell the love she wanted and I wanted so much to tell her about it now . Tell her that I wasn't the one for her but I couldn't bring myself to do that either. She might be grumpy to others but I knew she always tried to please me and she liked me too . I would feel bad breaking her heart but I would also be selfish too if I didn't do it either because it would mean I was leading her on and letting her hope that someday I'll be in love with her and make her my mate. I would also still be selfish to Kylie . I knew one of the main reasons Kylie was afraid of getting close to me was because of Mitchell and I really want to be honest and fair to both of them even though Kylie doesn't make it easier for me and I try really so hard to stop myself most times from getting close to her.

I had to skip classes the whole day and hung out with Mitchell instead, trying to see if I'll get the chance to be able to confess that I wasn't in love with her. We were both alone in the field and she was quite happy when we made little talks while I on the other hand was nervous. Very nervous and couldn't bring my self to say what I needed to say. How was I even going to start? Should I just go straight to the point and tell her Kylie was my mate or should I start by telling her that I felt nothing for her and could only consider her as a friend? I bet she'll consider me an enemy afterwards.

" It really means alot to me that you chose to spend time with me today." She smiled and brought her hand closer to mine . Her touch was gentle but was nothing like Kylie's. No sparks and no yearning for me to draw her closer. We weren't facing each other but were facing the same direction and I could tell she was staring at me. Staring intently in an adorable manner and it made my chest feel tighter. Was she in love with me? I wasn't sure of that answer .She might just want me and maybe have feelings too but I hope it wasn't really that deep.

" Yeah, I decided it was necessary since we haven't spent much time lately and because I also want to say something. " It was hard trying to place the words and her jaw tightened as though sensing I wanted to say something bad. Maybe because I wasn't smiling and had on a dull expression.

" What is it?" She asked but I instinctively turned back when a familiar scent hit me. It was Kylie and she looked like she just saw a ghost as she stood fixed in her position and her face held a bit of hurt. When she noticed me staring at her, she turned back and started walking away. I did notice Mitchell wanting to turn back too and see what I was looking at but I quickly turned to face her and she stared at me instead.

" You were saying something ?" She reminded me but I shrugged it off . I don't think I'll be able to say it again. I honestly feel confused and from the way Kylie left, I could tell she was hurt and would probably avoid me now using this as an excuse.

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Dinner later that evening with my parents was a bit rather too frustrating with the questions they asked and the things they planned out already such as adding Mitchell and I to the guests list at the annual festive party. It was almost getting to the full moon and during that period, we usually celebrated the moon goddess festival and also threw an indoor party. More like a ball and all the packs could attend.

I usually chose not to attend before and my parents let it slide until now. I wonder why it was necessary for me to attend this time around and why they are choosing Mitchell to be my companion.

" I really don't think it's necessary for me to attend the party. I can participate outdoors like in the bonfire party where the others will be . I see no need attending a party for grown ups." I argued.

It was mostly the adults like alpha's and beta's that attended the indoor party's while the others mostly stayed outside and danced around bonfires and also joked around. It was fun unlike the indoors where you were expected to behave classy and that I couldn't bear or stay still as my parents introduce me to every guest. I didn't want that. I wanted to be outside. Kylie was going to be there and I wanted to spend time with her.

" You're going to be an alpha someday son. You need to start getting used to these things. " My father replied with his usual words whenever I tried disagreeing to something he says.

"Yes, you need to get use to it. It will be fun." My mum supported him and I didnt have an appetite anymore. I delayed with my dessert and couldn't think of what to say to change their mind. I wouldn't dare say I wanted Kylie to go with me instead of Mitchell. The surprise and questions they'll flood in on me would be unbearable.

Thinking about Kylie now made me remember what had happened earlier on and the look on her face when she saw me with Mitchell. I should go see her and talk it out.

" Are you done eating? " My mum asked as I stood up and I nodded. I didn't want to talk to them right now . They can't keep forcing me to do things I didn't like. I hated it.

KYLIE'S POV

I was surprised to see Nathan at my door especially at this time of the night. I wondered why he was here and what he could possibly want from me but either ways i felt a jolt of emotions and I took deep breaths as he gazed at me softly.

I was about giving him a smile but I suddenly remembered what happened today. He skipped all his classes just to spend time with Mitchell and it made me feel angry so I frowned.

" What are you doing here? " He narrowed his eyes at my harsh tone but I didn't even try to stay cool. I didn't want to stay cool. If he wants her so much, he should go be with her and stop coming to me or making me feel things.

" Can I at least come in?"

" No." I snapped

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" If its about the plant, it hasn't started growing. " I added and didn't even bother looking at him but I knew he was a bit thrown off by my attitude.

" Of course I know it hasn't started growing. and fuck it _ I didn't come here for a stupid plant , I came here for you. " There was something about his voice now. There was desperation in it and probably want. This was what I hated. He's going to say somethings now that'll make me feel numb and breathless and the next day, he'll act like I don't exist and go spend time with Mitchell.

" Well, I'm busy." That was definitely a dumb reply but I don't think I'm thinking straight right now.

" Are you angry because you saw me with Mitchell?" He asked and I felt thrown off guard. I really don't understand if it was only anger I felt or why I felt such but I knew I didn't like seeing him so close to someone else or him wanting someone else. I couldn't bear it and it seem as though he enjoyed seeing me like this right now. Seeing me feeling insecure and I hated it too. I took deep breaths trying to control myself but it only made it worse and I felt a sting of tears in my eyes.

"Of course I am. I'm not just angry but I hate it when you act like this. I hate it when you come so close to me, make me feel so many things all at once., leave my heart racing and then the next day, you stay away from me and go out with Mitchell. I'm not saying you shouldn't. You have every right to choose whoever you want to be with and yes she's more prettier than I am and probably your dream girl but I hate it when you make me feel like I matter to you. I know I don't _ _just stop it" I finally caught a hold of my breath and also a glimpse of his face which held shock at my words . He drew closer to me and his hand rose to my cheeks, stroking it gently.

" Of course you matter to me." With this, his hand other hand slid around my waist and pulled me flushed against him. Before I could ask him what he was doing or push him away , his lips presses against mine .