I will go lower

I had never felt like a fucking Fool my entire life the way I felt right now and at this moment .

I couldn’t stop crying and as much as I wanted the tears to stop , I just couldn’t stop them and they just kept flowing out .

I sat in the car wanting to go away .

My heart felt shattered. I couldn’t believe that Noah could do this to me , the betrayal hurt and stings like hell and the fact that he hasn't said a word to me and just decided to do this .

I had never felt like a fool in my entire life , I was the biggest fool , there were signs and I shouldn’t have ignored them and I chose to , just because she is my friend .

They broke me , they destroyed me and every atom of love I had left in me .

I knew that going into social media at this moment was the least thing that I could do , they were going to drag me to flirt if they found out about it .

My phone beeped and it was a message from an anonymous person. I clicked on it and watching the video made my heart ache .

It was them saying their vows.

“I love you Olivia and it has always been you , you have been the only person that I ever loved and regardless of what the situation might be I will always choose you and it is going to be you and you alone’’I promise Noah said and then they both sealed it with a kiss .

Watching it made me feel like my heart was being ripped out , I felt strangled , I felt like I was dying and I had no one to call or even run to at this moment.

Someone knocked on the door of my car as I was about to drive away .

I quickly cleaned off the tears I had on my eyes and then lowered the glass and then the least person that I expected to see bulb his head into my car .

It was Sebastian , Olivia's father .

Staring at those golden deep brown eyes , all I could remember was the stupid crush that I had on him years ago .

Sebastian I would say is the most attractive man that I have ever seen in my entire life even though he was in his early 40s he still looked more attractive .

He had the most beautiful eyes that I had ever seen , pointed nose and plump cute lips and not seeing him two years didn’t change that, he looked hot as fuck in the suit he wore .

“Addie, you okay ?” He asked me .

Faces with his cute gaze , all that I could remember was what his daughter did to me .

“What do you want , aren’t you the bride's father , you should be doing your fatherly duties .

“ I had to check up on you considering the fact that I haven’t seen you in two years .

Well, you might have seen me , if your daughter hadn’t gotten married to my boyfriend of seven years and yet it was today of all days that I got to find out about it , how about that.

“ That’s no reasons I am here , I am not here to apologize for my daughter , I know you won’t be doing good and so I just wanted to check up on you , I know this is crazy but maybe we could hang out later and then talk things out , I know you feel betrayed , but trust me , I never betrayed you .

Watching him speak made me calm , I wanted to say no and drive off , but then something struck inside of me , I knew exactly what I was going to do .

“ So what do you say , 8pm tonight ?

“ I will be there , just text the address “ I told him and he nodded .

I watched him walk away and when he left , I felt those wetness under my undies , I was wet for him just by hearing his voice .

Once he was gone , a smile broke out from my face as the thought crushed into my head. At that moment all the hurt and the anger and hatred I felt for her disappeared and all that I felt right now was pure hatred and revenge .

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I walked into the reception of my best friend's wedding , should I even call her that .

Everywhere was lively and I seemed to be the only one who wasn’t happy for the couples .

Just as I walked in , the first person I saw was my dad and mom .

“ don’t tell me you are here to create a scene like you did the first time ?” My mom asked me as I twirled the fingers behind me .

“I’m not here for that mom, in fact I am here to make things right like I should have done .

“Exactly how you should have done instead of over reacting and acting all bitchy and wanting to ruin the family name .

My mom walked away and my sister walked up to me holding her purse tightly , I knew she wanted to say something.

You don’t have to feel bad , Caroline , I am pretty sure mom and dad asked you not to tell me about it and I totally understand it’s not your fault “ I told her and walked away .

As I walked toward Olivia , all I could feel was the uttermost feel of disgust crawling at the deepest part of my stomach towards her.

The moment she saw me approach she stood up and approached me too.

The next moment I was standing right in front of her .

Are you here to ruin the remaining part of my day like you have planned or tried to share in my happiness like you should have .

The guts , the nerves that she had to say that , she wasn’t even feeling remorseful a bit .

“You have to leave Adeline , you are not welcome here , you have been away for two years and even though we have been in touch with each other it doesn’t change a thing , you leavIng now isn’t going to do a thing so leave now “she told me pointing at the door .

“I’m sorry”, I never should have reacted the way that I did “ I told her as the tears poured.

“ I love you so much Olivia , much more than you had ever imagine and it just hurt that you can keep that away from me , and I am so sorry for the way that I reacted , I never should have , I tried to spoil you big day and I am so sorry and I love you and this isn’t going to stop you from being my best friend .

I never thought about a life without you , I love you so much best , more than you have ever imagined , please just take me back “ I told her crying .

I love you too , thank goodness you finally came back to your senses “ she told me as she hugged me while the rest of the people clapped, including her friends.

I could see the reluctant look on Noah’s face but he let it go .

After my beautiful and admirable speech , I sat far from the newly wedded as I watched her dance excitedly with him .

Olivia turned to me urging me to come join them.

A pathetic girl , she doesn’t really know what’s coming for her , she thinks she’s a bitch but I am going to teach her how to play the real game. She went low but I am going to go lower .