Ungrateful

Roy Wilbur POV

Due to the tragic incident that happened within these days, I have been unable to eat nor go to school. 

I just can't believe she is gone! I didn't know what It meant by losing someone precious till then. It feels like drowning in an ocean. No one to rescue you. It's more than losing all breath.

Everything you ever loved to achieve, or do becomes shaft in your eyes. You lose anxiety for everything. 

Whenever my mom calls to check on me, she knows I never go out but stay indoors and that I don't care about myself even if I tell her I am ok.

She decided I come over and leave with her for some time so, she could take care of me. She was right.  She didn't want to lose another precious being. Moreover, I'm her husband (that is how she calls me), her heart… you can name them. I'm the only person she has. 

I don't intend to lose her too so, I avoid making her worried. Everything she asks of me, I do.

Weeks have passed yet, nothing has changed. I haven't been hanging out with my friends and I'm glad they understand perfectly well. They sometimes come to visit and condominium with me. That's what friends are for. Sharing one another's burden.

I was sitting in the garden this evening when my mom walked towards me with a gentle smile.

Her expression revealed more than just what anyone will insinuate. I know her too well just as she knows me.

Her facial expression reported worries about my feelings towards this something, which I was to find out.

I didn't want to discourage her though I felt I may not like what she is about proposing so, I made her the same smile.

The truth is I understood she has been trying to tell me something and specifically based on the statements she makes whenever she talks of her job, I knew something was up.

“Baby…” she mumbles 

I pretend I heard nothing just so she could be audible.

“Rex…” she repeats loudly, and I bring my full attention to her raising my brows.

“Uhh… I need to tell you something… it's been tormenting me for some days now.” 

I stared at her blankly and she handed me a form.

I gently received it

“Take a look… as you can see, this is a form about my promotion. It was given to me two days ago. I'm not sure how this would sound to you” She expatiated

“Pitchoun! That is in California I guess…” I replied

“…yeah” she stammered 

I glanced at her expectantly, waiting for her to complete her statement but she said nothing.

“So, we will be relocating to the states…?” I acknowledge more than I inquired

“left for you to decide. Whatever you want, I will stick to it. Because you are what matters to me”

Those words hurt me, however, I battled in accepting this. Though the proposal was life-changing.

I understood exactly what my mom felt and why she came to me this way. It was not an easy decision for me to live in the place I spent ¾ of my life span.

Moreover, with part of me buried in the ground already decaying. I don't think I can stop missing the love I have for Bella. The area we went and where we grew up. 

I keep feeling her every time I close my eyes. Like she is still stuck on me.

“I will think about it” I responded

She sighs

“We do not have much time. Before dawn tomorrow, I have to send a soft copy of this to the bakery. And all that has to be done tonight”

I was speechless and leaned against my sit, tapping the edges of it with my nails.

After a minute of silence, I replied.

“Mum I… love you and don't want to be an obstacle to your dreams. There is no way you are going to refuse this just because I have challenging times. I want to be the reason you are happy and not the other way round. So, go on and accept it before someone else does” 

Her face became relaxed as though she was about grinning. However, she forced the feeling so I don't see how excited she was. 

“Thanks, so much sweetheart… mum will never forget this!” she gladly embraced me then walked to her room.

**

The following day, Amanda woke up joyfully with memories of yesterday. Taking her bath, doing her choices, making breakfast was so swift for her as she kept humming a melody.

Her grandma kept watching her with a grateful smile on her faded but beautiful cheeks.

She couldn't notice her stare since she was so lost in her melodies. After doing everything and getting ready for school, she stepped out. Her first sight earned her smile to fade away in a swift time.

Rex was flexed in his Mercedes which was parked in front of her door while her vehicle was nowhere to be found.

She frowned bitterly rapidly walking towards his vehicle making sure her dad does not notice his presence or find out her car is missing.

When Rex saw her running forward, he angled his head smirking at her charmingly.

To be continued...