Lost Memories of the Billionaire’s Wife

Every time I can see myself in front of a mirror, I always wonder, “Who really am I?” I always feel like there is a huge part of me missing – and I know we all do at some point if we feel lost, but mine is different. Its’s like, I have absolutely forgotten the half of my entire lifetime – literally.

Oh! Of course,

I forgot the past that I had a car accident and was totally unconscious for eight months. Jokes on me! How can I forget the thing that made me forget everything?

“Liena?”

That’s just my best friend – she said, but I can’t remember but I still do trust her.

She took care of me when I was unconscious for months. I asked her about stuffs that I used to do back then before my accident. But she didn’t tell me everything yet, I can feel that she’s careful about the information that she’s feeding me. I wonder if she’s afraid that it can cause some pain to me, that’s why she is holding back.

“Yes, I’m ready.”

This is my first time going out, the Doctor didn’t allow me to go out for a month. I was advised to just rest for a while and to buy a little time for my bruises to heal. Also, Jess is quite worried of me that if I go out, I might be in pain if there are some events and places that could trigger my memories – I, too is antsy about all of these.

I cannot complain, I have no family to lean on. Jess told me I grew up from the orphan – both of us, and that explains why we are best friends. I also feel that Jess is not just a friend, she’s like a family to me – a sister to be exact.

I sighed deeply thinking what really happened about my life before the accident. I look at jess busy packing her things that she needs. Things are harder right now; I also wonder if I’m a too much burden for Jess. Nevertheless, I am always grateful to her. As soon as I’m already okay I will find a way to help her especially the finances that she paid when I was in the Hospital.

Jess is preparing all her stuffs before we’ll head out later.

“Okay, our first stop is your favorite resto!” she squealed with full bright smile, before I could react Jess was taken back.

“Holly molly! I forgot, I’m sorry Lie.” She replied when she remembered that I am not yet ready to the memories – just in case, that could happen.

I just giggled and smiled at her. We prepare to head out. We got out from apartment and after a few walks, we stopped by to a near coffee shop, we had some Americano latte and strawberry short cake. After there, we also did shop at a small store, it sells authentic dresses that are woven by some natives from southeast Asia. There are also jewelries, all the products have different unique patterns and colors. I really enjoyed it, I’m pretty sure Jess, too. I asked Jess if I like those stuffs back then, but she said she ‘d no idea – which is odd because she is my ‘best friend’ and supposed to be she should have had known most of the things about me. After the store, we watched action movie at the cinema. It was good and too intense. I wonder if I ever liked to watched action movie before.

It's around 5 pm already when we finished roaming around the town of Louisiana. I had so much fun, Jess and I had a blast! I hope that it’s always like this, but I know that life can’t be all rainbows and butterflies.

A few blocks away before Jess’s apartment, there’s a car that parked in front it. I wouldn’t bother if it’s just any car, but that car made me stop from walking. Suddenly, there are blurred flashes of events that is rapidly replaying inside in my head. I am holding my head and closing my eyes because of the pain I feel inside in my head. I feel dizzy at some point and all I can hear are the noises of Jess.

“Liena!”

“Are you okay?!”

“Liena!? Should we go to the Doctor now!?”

“Lien – “Opening my teary eyes made Jess stop.

I looked at her, puzzled. I feel like crying, my hands are shaking, and I can’t barely move my feet to take a step. I don’t know but I want badly those flashes in my head to be clear. I shouldn’t rush my memories to come back, but what if I run out of time finding out who I am? Or what if my memories won’t come back ever? How long should I be like this? Searching for truth? My Identity?

“The car that parked over there a while ago, do you know who’s the owner?”

Jess was totally confused too.

“No, why?”

“Did the car triggered some memories?” She abruptly asked.

“Yeah, but it was all blurred.” I responded with a heavy sigh.

“That car was gone, but do you want us to track that car? Or maybe get some help?”

I look at Jess, worry is written all over her face. As much as I want to get an answer about the car and why did my memories got triggered by that car…

I can’t.

“It’s fine,” I feel like I’m physically drained right now. I’m still feeling dizzy, and my head is still hurting. I think I badly need to rest. “I just want to rest now.”

Jess didn’t argue with me anymore, she’ always worried when I feel uncomfortable especially when I feel pain. We hurriedly get back to the apartment and Jess handed me a glass of water. With Jess being agitated about my situation, here I am feeling overwhelmed about what happened.

The car wasn’t even familiar, but I guess there’s something that I should find out about my accident.

Jess is sitting in the sofa facing me, observing every move I make and trying to read my unspoken thoughts. She’s still in shocked with the episode that just had happened.

“Are you sure the car isn’t familiar?” She asked.

I looked right into her eyes looking for the answer to her question.

I sighed in disbelief, “I’m not sure, Jess. I don’t know why I got triggered back then.”

Everything is chaotic right now. I don’t know when and where to start looking for all the answers.

“Jess, did you know someone that I am close to?”

“What do you mean?” she frowns up.

“You know, aside from you. Did you know someone like if I ever did have a boyfriend before the accident?”

She moved a little bit on sofa and straighten her back.

“I don’t think so.”