
Summary
I immediately got a nervous attack because of what he said. Confirmed! He saw me last night! And I don't know how I can ...
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chapter 1
"I'm leaving, Mom."
I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw Mama sitting in the living room with a bottle of wine in her hand. There is nothing new there. She's like this everyday. but sometimes it's tiring to see him like this, with each passing day.
He stood up and looked at me with wide eyes from drunkenness. He staggered towards me. I waited for him to come closer before I spoke.
"It's early but you're drunk again." I said. He was already drunk at nine o'clock in the morning. But as I said, there is nothing new here.
"You know why I'm drunk? Because of you." He raised his hand and stuck his index finger on my forehead. He pushed my head with his index finger.
I didn't move and let him push my head. I bit my lower lip to stop the emotion that wanted to escape from my chest.
"Can you not come back? I don't want to see your face." he said and gently slapped my cheek. I shook my head.
"This is my only house." I said in a soft and low voice. I can't count how many times we've talked about it, but we've talked about it over and over again. maybe because he's drunk that's why he always forgets what we're talking about.
"Edi, ask your demon father for money. So you can move and I won't see your face anymore!"
I sighed. I know exactly where this is going. I brace myself for whatever he will do to me when I see the anger in his eyes.
And I wasn't wrong. Just for a few moments, I felt the strong application of his palm on my cheek. My head was thrown to the side because of his hard slap on me. He wasn't satisfied yet and slapped my other cheek.
"You ruined my life! You two of your demon father! You are demons! Animals!" he shouted while slapping me again and again.
I didn't move from where I was standing and just let him slap me. I accepted each touch of his palm on my cheek and I didn't try to fight. I was just bending over and biting my lower lip hard.
Looks like I'm going in again with bruises on my cheeks.
Mama was not satisfied and violently pulled my hair. I pressed harder on biting my lip so that no noise would come out of it. He will get even more angry when I say something, so I should be quiet even though I feel like my hair is separating from my scalp.
"Beasts! Demons! Die!" he continued to say while still tweaking me.
"Clarita! That's right!" I heard Mang Rosi say and grabbed Mama's hands that were tightly clinging to my hair. "The child is hurting!"
I tasted blood on my lips as I bit down harder on it. Manang Rosi tried to remove Mama's hands from my hair, so it was more than that. I feel like my scalp is bleeding. I just breathed a sigh of relief when Manang Rosi completely removed Mama's hands.
"They ruined my life, Manang! They are demons!" I heard Mama say and she started crying while Manang Rosi held her hands. Little by little, Mama sat on the floor as if she had lost her strength. "They are demons!"
My eyes were emotionless as I looked at Mama. I'm numb. I couldn't even feel my scalp as well as my cheeks that he slapped again and again.
"Alright, Daphne. Come in. You might be late for your class." Manang Rosi said that Mama is now staying. I nodded and picked up my shoulder bag that I had dropped earlier when Mama was tweaking me.
"I wish I had aborted that demon's child!" I heard Mama say as I walked out of our house.
I got in the car and drove like nothing happened. But even though I try to forget what happened earlier, I still can't help but feel heavy in my chest. The corners of my eyes started to heat up and my breathing became deeper.
"Don't cry. Don't cry. you're strong so don't cry.
I don't care if something bad happens to me. I hate my life anyway.
My mom was raped and I was the result. my mom can't do anything about that guy 'cause he's rich. And I have said several times that he should not accept the money that man is giving if he has any dignity left. But she said that there has been nothing since that man raped her. after all, his dignity has just run out so he accepts the money. It is also said to be payment for raising him with me.
I never met him. That guy. And I have no plans to meet him. All I know is that he is British. My mom was a waitress in London back then. she has a boyfriend and their relationship is long distance. That man tried to persuade Mama but because she had a boyfriend at the time, she refused. But that man did not stop even though he was rejected several times. Until he ended up raping Mama.
Yes, I hate that guy. I can't even accept him as my father. I can't call him my father. Mama is mad at me because of him. Mama tortures me every day because of her.
And yes. I am also angry with Mom. I mean, why did he even give birth to me if he just hates me? I would have been happier if he had just aborted me.
I freaking hate my life.
Unfortunately nothing bad happened to me. I arrived safely at our university. before I got out of my car, I checked my appearance in the mirror. Little by little, the bruises on my cheeks from slapping me earlier started to show. It will probably only be a matter of time before everyone notices it.
I didn't even bother to cover it and got out of the car. What's the use? Not a week goes by without a bruise on my body. And besides being the Miss Prim and Proper, everyone knows me as a clumsy genius.
"Daphne!"
I looked at the person who called me and I automatically smiled when I saw Artemis running towards me. It looks like he just got to university.
"Good morning!" he said to me with a smile. I tried to smile widely but I felt the pain in my cheek so I couldn't do it.
"You're happy, aren't you? How's your date?" I asked her instead.
"It was awesome! Joshua did—" he stopped and stared at my face. "What happened to your face?" He asked worriedly so I immediately averted my face from him.
"I tripped and fell down the stairs. first face." I lied and laughed a little as if something funny happened to me.
I saw Artemis looking at me intently. He stared at every bruise on my face. I know he doesn't believe every lie I tell every time I have bruises on my body. But he didn't ask. He probably knows that I won't tell him the truth either.
I was a loner. When I first came to university, I was always alone. others tried to make friends with me but I knew they were only doing that to get high grades. To be able to copy me every exam.
Not until Artemis sat with me in the library while I was busy doing an assignment. She had an annoyed look on her face that day. I knew him from the beginning. Besides being my blockmate, he is another Gallagher. The famous Gallagher siblings that I think everyone knows at that university. Rich and of good race. Especially those beautiful blue eyes.
We became friends. like me because it seems that others only use Artemis. If not to gain popularity, he is used to get them closer to his male brothers. I know the feeling of being used so I agreed to be friends with him.
I came to my senses when I heard him sigh loudly.
"Are you okay?" there was concern in his eyes when he asked that. He held my hand before smiling at me. "Just, Daphne. I'm just here, huh? Don't be shy to tell me."
I nodded and smiled back at him. Sometimes I envy him. It's like his life is so fun. Not like mine.
And I thought about it once too. How does it feel to live as Artemis Gallagher
