HEARTS OF TWO

CHAPTER ONE.

JANE'S POV.

“Mom...? I say slowly as I walk into my mum's room. I don't get a reply from her, so I walk up to her bed where she's sleeping.

"Mom?... Mom?" I called again, not so sure of all the restless feelings I'm having right now. She's facing the other side of the bed, so I couldn't get a good look at her face.

"Mom... you're okay?" I ask her to turn around to face me. The temperature of her body made me shudder. geez... why is her body so hot? I ask myself as I raise the upper part of her body, while I sit on the bed and lay her back on my thighs. She looks so pale, just seeing how pale her face looks, almost brought me to tears.

"Mom, why aren't you saying anything, come on talk to me please..." I say sharply with fear written all over my face immediately she twitched, which made me shudder sharply.

"Mom? Mom!!!..." I shouted with fear, shaking her abruptly. Her heartbeat has abnormally increased and her body temperature is higher than normal, she's also sweating more than usual and breathing slower than normal. God! what is going on! tears rolled down my face, I didn't even realise I'm crying already. I'm so confused I don't know what to do. I tried standing up, so I could go get Nanny or my phone to call her at least, but before I could get up from the bed, mom starts shaking. Oh God help me...! I sit back on the bed and raise her upper body so I could lay her back on my thighs again and hold her well and tight. I'm so so scared.

"Nanny!!! Nanny...! '' I shout at the top of my lungs. I was beginning to lose it, and I couldn't control my tears any longer. I started crying.

"Jane dear, are you okay? " Nanny asks from outside the room, she runs into the room with a rush. She looks concerned and worried.

"Jane, what is going on here, why are you crying, what is happening to your mom?" she asks with a shock and worried expression on her face, as she walks towards us...

"Nanny, I don't know what's happening to mommy... I came into the room to check up on her and... I met her in a ve..ry bad... state and....and... no..w ...now ...this... she... just started shaking and breathing really slow and...and she's not even talking or... or..even opening her eyes... and..." She hugs me really tight as I stumble and choke on my words.

"Stop crying baby, your mum will be fine. I will just call Dr Antonio" She manage to say while she wiped out the tears from my eyes.

"Oh my God! Dr Antonio... that's right! That's what I should have done first... I should have called him. What was I thinking, where the hell is my phone?" I yell, laying mom back on the bed carefully, as I hurriedly stand up from the bed, to search for my phone in my bag and wondering, why I haven't called Dr Antonio yet. like the hell, what was I thinking for real? Damn! I can't find the phone, where is it? Where is the phone, where did I keep my phone? I'm sure I kept it in my bag. Oh my God this is beginning to frustrate me.

"where is the god damn phone, where exactly the hell did I put it? I'm sure I left it in my bag before coming into this room, I'm sure it's here..." I freaked out.

"Sweetie calm down. I'm sure it's in here, you're just not in a good state of mind right now" Nanny says as she collects the bag from me.

She searches through it properly while I walk up to mum and hold her really tight, praying and hoping that this doesn't get any worse. Tears rolled down my eyes. The sight of her alone is making me cry. she had stopped shaking, but she's still breathing slowly. Oh God! she looks way too bad... Help me Lord, I can't afford to lose her, she's all I have got.

"Found it! here you go..." Nanny says while handing the phone over to me.

I dialled doctor Antonio's number, waiting impatiently for him to pick up.

"Hello? " I hear doctor Antonio's voice from the other end of the call.

"Doctor, my mum isn't okay at all. She's... she... doctor can you please come over to our house she's not doing okay at all" I shriek.

"Jane, calm down okay? I'll be there in fifteen minutes. What did you say is wrong with her?" He asks. I could sense how worried and concerned he was from his voice.

"She looks really pale, her body is very hot, she's breathing really slower than normal... having difficulty in breathing... and she was shaking before, but has stopped and now..."

"She is having bradypnea?" He interrupts sharply.

"I don't even know what that means" I groan, wondering what bradypnea means.

"You said she's breathing slower than normal right?" he asks with all seriousness.

"yes and I think whatever is happening to her is affecting her breathing" I stare at my mum's face, geez! she's getting worse every minute.

"And she was shaking before?" he inquires. he is beginning to scare me with the way he sounds.

"yes doc" I answered with fear.

"Is there anything else you noticed?" he asks sharply. I could hear him driving, thank God he is on his way.

"yeah. she's also sweating profusely, she did twitch earlier on and she looks extremely pale and weak" I answered.

"Oh my God!" he says softly.

"what?! doctor what's wrong, what happened, is it that serious, doc she would be fine right?" I shriek with fear.

"Don't worry Jane, I'm on my way, just don't leave her side." he says, cutting off the line.

"Hello?... Doc.! hello?

"What did he say? What happened Jane, why aren't you saying anything? "Nanny asks with a worried look on her face, she looks so scared too.

"He said he's on his way and we shouldn't leave her side" I look down at mum, she looks like she's going through excruciating pain. I know she is, I can feel it. I wish I could take some of her pains away, she has gone through a lot.

She is suffering from clinical disorder. It's been 3 years now and she's just getting worse each passing day, instead of getting better. We have taken her to different hospitals and specialists to get the best treatment, but still, nothing to show for it. Her health keeps depreciating. I'm so scared right now. I can't lose her, I don't think I can survive it. She is my everything!

"Jane, doctor Antonio is here" Nanny jolted me out of my unconscious state. I didn't even realise how deep I have gone in my thoughts.

"Good afternoon doc. Will my mum be alright?" I inquire with a shakily voice and my pitiful and swollen red face, begging for him to tell me she will be alright. The tears didn't do justice to my face at all. My face is all red now. He walked up to me and patted my shoulder, giving me these fake, ensuring smiles and looks. He is actually doing a bad job at keeping that face. He looks very worried and concerned for me, I could see the sympathy look in his eyes.

"I'll just check her vitals. this is more serious than the last time, so we'll have to get her to the hospital very quickly" He says hastily, bringing out his equipment from his bag and checking whatever... on my mum's body. He brought out something from his bag and put it inside mum's mouth. I was becoming really restless and I started pacing around the room, my hands were shaking already and I couldn't even control it. Nanny comes up to me and hugs me from my side, she holds my hands tight and pat my shoulder in a soothing manner.

"don't worry baby, she will be fine." She whispers.

My phone started ringing, I looked at the screen to see the caller, aunt Kira. Nanny called her earlier but she wasn't answering her calls. I guess she was busy or she wasn't with her phone. Aunt Kira is mum's best friend and childhood friend, they grew up together and they're always there for each other. I so much love their friendship, they are more like sisters.

"Jane you called earlier, sorry I wasn't able to take your calls, I was attending to some customers. how are you doing?" She says happily at the other end of the line. Although she sounds tired, I guess today's sales were fruitful but hectic.

"Aunt Kira...." I answer in a croak voice.

"Jane, is something wrong, are you in some kind of trouble?" she asks with concern...

"No, I'm not..." I'm crying this time.

"Jane, you are making me scared. What's the problem dear, did something happen? like, are you okay, is your mum okay also? Talk to me Jane, what happened? why the hell are you crying?" She sounds very worried this time.

"It's about mum, she... is... she's... not okay. Her health issues have started again and this time it's really worse and more critical than the last time." I say, crying real hard now.

"Oh my God! Jane, please stop crying. Have you called doctor Antonio yet?" she asks with a croaked voice. Is she crying already?

"yes! He is here already, he's checking her vitals." I cry.

"What about your dad, have you called him yet? You know, you have to call him, he should be aware of what's going on with your mom." She let out softly.

"No way! I'm not calling that man, it's not like he cares." I flared. Just the thought of him, makes me really really angry.

"Jane, you have to call him, he has to know what's going on with your mum. He has the right to know Jane. Please, you really have to call him" She tries to convince me.

"Come on aunt, it's not like he cares. Aunt Kira, how about you just forget about him and come over. I really need you to console me right now and not talk about my dad. Mom doesn't need...." I was interrupted by the nanny's loud cry.

"No....!!! that can't be..." Nanny cries. I hurriedly went inside to know what's going on.

"Jane, Jane can you hear me? Jane you're there? What's going on, what happened? Come on, talk to me..." Aunt Kira asked with so much concern. I could sense the worry in her voice but I couldn't care less.

I met Nanny on the floor crying, and the sad look on doctor Antonio's face was just so scary. What the hell is going on? I just hope it's not what I'm thinking. God! it can't be!

"what's...what... is... what's going on?" my question couldn't even come out loud enough, but I'm sure they heard me.

"I'm so so sorry Jane... I... she... your mum, she couldn't make it. I'm so sorry." He says sadly

What??? That was a bombshell!!!! He's got to be joking. This can't be. Am I dreaming? I heard aunt Kira gasp at the other end of the line, does that mean I'm not dreaming? No...! no... no!!!! the phone fell off my hand, I couldn't feel myself anymore, I couldn't breathe. I can't feel any part of my body, all I can feel is pain, an excruciating pain! I couldn't move, I was in total shock.

"Jane... Jane... oh my dear Jane" I hear nanny sobbing. I could feel her hugging me and wiping God-knows-what, from my eyes. Oh my God! I'm crying.

"No... no... no...!!! oh God! please, let it be I'm dreaming, let this be a dream please." I cry while I walk straight to my mum's lifeless body. She's my world and I just watch my whole world crumble! My whole world is gone !!! How do I live with this, how do I survive?!