Chapter 4

After consoling my sister, I was back in my room. I threw my bag and that box aside and lay on my bed. I took a deep breath, "Today was a long day," I can't believe someone likes me, ignoring the fact that that someone is Brandon Johnson, this is the first time someone has liked me. How should I be reacting? I mean, I do want to know what it feels like to love someone but "CAN'T THAT SOMEONE BE A GIRL?! WHAT THE FUCK!"

My first confession is from a guy. I was ready for the worst but nothing this bad. And he's not just any guy, he's a drag and drama prince of the school. I hate drama. I don't like him even as a person. I like someone else. Guys, there's this brunette girl named Elizzie Brown. I've had a crush on her since middle school. Although I've never really had a conversation with her, I wish I had. She's so small and cute. I really like small and cute things.

You know guys, I never had any friends. Like ever! Because whenever someone gets close to me, I say what's on my mind and then they hate me. People likes you when you're honest. But when you're honest with them, you just become an asshole. So, I can safely say that I'm pretty much a loner since birth. Even my own sister doesn't like me and she is embarrassed to have me around. Mom mostly seems to favor Anna over everything. Sometimes I feel like I wasn't wanted.

There should have been just an Anna.

Because of our rare genetic condition, the doctors mistook me for a girl and mom and dad decided our names beforehand. Kate and Anna. Kate was supposed to be a girl. So, I guess I let everyone down the moment I was born. And that hasn't changed with time. I still let everyone down. You guys are going to be disappointed too.

"You should love yourself the way I love you,"

How can I love myself when nobody loves me?

Brandon Johnson, you don't love me. You're just bored. You're not the first bored person I've met. Truth is, I can't love anyone. Because I have never received love so I don't know how you love someone. I wasn't made for it.

The black box fell down from my table on the floor. I stared at it for a while and got up. I took it and sat on the carpet. Let me just see if this works. I've given so many chances to other products so let me give a chance to this. So, first cleanser, I guess that's what you call it? Yeah. I clipped my bangs on my head and looked into the mirror. Alright bitches, we are looking ugly check. Now, let's start. I washed my face and then patted it dry with a towel. Then I sprayed the toner. Then essence, right? Yeah, then serum. I sniffed it, "Hmm, smells metallic, what is this?" Vitamin C serum, okay and what is this—Niacinamide. It took me a minute to pronounce it correctly. You know, fuck Chemistry.

So, finally I put moisturizer. And I think I don't need sunscreen because I'm going to bed after this. I'm tired. I threw myself on my bed and looked at the air conditioner.

My life theory is 'No friends, no trends, no love, Kate's above all troves!'

I mean, it's bad. And if it's bad it's bad, it's bad it's bad.

I'm critically high. I should go to bed now.

So, I didn't have dinner that night and woke up at three in the morning. I ate some leftovers from the fridge and some chips. I drank some milkshake and looked at the clock. It was about to be four. Well, school starts at eight. I still got time, let me sleep for another two hours. I went back to bed and looked at my phone. No missed calls, no messages. Who am I even kidding? I only have my family's phone numbers in my twentieth century phone. I had nothing else to do so I just slept. When I opened my eyes, it was 7:40.

Bruh.

"MOM! WHY DIDN'T YOU WAKE ME UP?!" I shouted as I washed my face with soap and washed my hair in the sinḳ.

"What? I thought you went to school with Anna?"

"WHERE IS MY PURPLE SHAMPOO?!"

"Anna has it." I just washed my hair with soap again and this time it ended up green. FUCK—CURSE THE BLONDE GODS!

"MOM! MY HAIR IS GREEN!" I cried.

"Get some vinegar—"

"I DON'T HAVE TIME! ARE YOU BLIND? JUST FIFTEEN MINUTES ARE LEFT AND I NEED TO TAKE A SHIT!" I blow dried my hair while sitting on the toilet seat and gargling.

"I was busy,"

"DIDN'T YOU SEE THAT I WASN'T THERE FOR BREAKFAST?!" I wore my clothes and my socks.

"I thought you won't eat. You didn't even eat dinner,"

"SO ISN'T IT OBVIOUS I WILL EAT BREAKFAST?!" I wore my shoes.

"I thought my Kate was finally on a diet to go lean,"

"DIET TO DIE I GUESS! Hey mom, can I not go to school today?"

"GO RIGHT NOW!"

"YES!" I picked my bag and ran out of the house with my green head. Let people stare and laugh! I'll say I dyed it! I made it to school on time. I went to the class and sat in a corner like always. There are bullies in my school, but they don't like bothering me. Reason is my sixth sense—Sharp tongue, of course.

I can't believe even bullies don't talk to me. What's so good about lying to people when you can just tell them what you really feel? What a plastic world, that's the reason why it's so cold, 'cause if it gets warm, the plastic will melt.

Brandon Johnson came to my class with about twenty girls following him.

"Oh my God! Hi Brandon!" The girls of my class squealed.

"I just heard you dumped Anna? That means you're free now, right?"

Dude, Anna's right there. Can you please be less hurtful to my sister? I frickin' hate girls like this.

"Let's go somewhere after school today!"

All of you're going to a mental asylum.

"Brandon!"

"Brandon, I heard you got a little sister?"

Why has he come here? He and Anna are over so don't come near my sister again! He is so annoying! It's good he's not in my class, but his class is just opposite to mine.

He walked towards Anna and I walked towards him. She looked at him. He was about to reach her but I stood between them, "Stop right there. You're not touching my sister—"

"Move aside, Kate," Anna pushed me away and I stared at her. I'm on your side, dummy.

"What is it, Brandon?" She blinked. I narrowed my eyes, "Bitch" I said in my head.

"You have my blue hoodie, Anna. I haven't got it back. That was my favorite one by the way, can you return it?" Ha! Suck that, bitch!

Anna smiled, "I've burnt it,"

Brandon smiled back, "I see. Too bad, I thought of giving you a second chance but you burnt that chance yourself,"

"WHAT? NO—"

It's so obvious he's just mocking you. Stop giving yourself away, Anna. For fuck's sake!

Then, that ass (Brandon=that ass) turned towards me and I flinched. I brought my fists before my chest, ready for a fight. He smiled at me.

"Brandon, hey, I was joking. I have it," Anna said. His smile faded and he turned towards Anna, "When can I get it back?" He sounded so cold!

"Can I keep it with me?"

He smirked, "Why? You gonna masturbate to that?"

Oh wow. I haven't seen this side of him. And wait—My sister is being harassed by this ass!

"I won't do that." She said.

"You shouldn't—" She grabbed his hair and kissed him clumsily. Everyone was staring at them. Oh God! This bitch has no shame. I turned red while looking at them. His eyes turned to me while she kissed him and he moved away from her.

"Brandon, hey. Let's stop this and get back together. We are perfect,"

You think that, bitch!

Anna, he is not your knight in shining armor! WAKE UP!

He pressed his hands into his pockets and shrugged, "Sorry Anna, I don't like easy girls,"

There, he embarrassed you in front of the whole school. Happy now?

Anna started crying and he scratched his head. WHAT AN ASS!

I ran towards her and wiped her tears. I glared at him and he just smiled at me. Anna pushed me away and ran out of the class.

"Anna!" I shouted but she was gone. I grabbed his collar, "Look what you did, you asshole! MY SISTER IS CRYING BECAUSE OF YOU!"

"Hey, leave Brandon alone! It's Anna's fault! She forced herself on him!" The girls defended him. Making those bitches his shield—I just hate him so much!

"I hope you're never happy with another girl! FUCK YOU!" I ran out of my class.

"Jesus, what an annoying dude. Are you okay, Brandon?" They asked him.

'I hope you're never happy with another girl!'

Brandon's crimson eyes glistened under his white bangs and he smiled,

"Of course, how can I be when I have you?"

-To be continued